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im OLD
happy birthday to ME!!!
inhuman update is here, with lots of yee
this is here i suppose i'm meant to like, go off on reminiscing about being 40. but the true honest reality is other than being reminded that in my 20s i didn't think i'd live past 28, now here i am in my 40s being like 'i wont live to 45 lol' for no good reason so i guess in some ways very little has changed.
but also i dont have tits anymore so in some ways things are absolutely changed for the better.
the real thing i find myself fixating on in regards to the passage of time is Ren. she's getting so old :< she's doing fine, but she sleeps so much and her arthritis makes her limp. i really doubt she will see me to 45. i hope she does though. i hope my entire lil family is obliterated in an alien light beam at the same instant, so none of us have to go on without the others. that seems like a well adjusted fantasy, right?
in health news, i'm changing up my SSRI meds (for depression) at the advice of my new oncologist. essentially i think my prior onc was excellent for the duration of chemotherapy treatment, but as for following me beyond treatment and tracking recovery she was really just not available. bc i did bring up this med issue to her originally and she dismissed it. essentially it's that my cancer med (tamoxifen) and depression med (sertraline/zoloft) both use the same kind of liver enzyme. the liver only makes so much of this at any given time, so they're in competition for resources meaning probably neither is working as well as it should be. sooo i get to start tapering down off sertraline, and in like a month when that's done i can start on lexapro which is another SSRI but doesn't use the same liver enzymes. or something like that. what am i, nerd science guy over here?
catch yall with the next page, surely.
l8r
inhuman update is here, with lots of yee
this is here i suppose i'm meant to like, go off on reminiscing about being 40. but the true honest reality is other than being reminded that in my 20s i didn't think i'd live past 28, now here i am in my 40s being like 'i wont live to 45 lol' for no good reason so i guess in some ways very little has changed.
but also i dont have tits anymore so in some ways things are absolutely changed for the better.
the real thing i find myself fixating on in regards to the passage of time is Ren. she's getting so old :< she's doing fine, but she sleeps so much and her arthritis makes her limp. i really doubt she will see me to 45. i hope she does though. i hope my entire lil family is obliterated in an alien light beam at the same instant, so none of us have to go on without the others. that seems like a well adjusted fantasy, right?
in health news, i'm changing up my SSRI meds (for depression) at the advice of my new oncologist. essentially i think my prior onc was excellent for the duration of chemotherapy treatment, but as for following me beyond treatment and tracking recovery she was really just not available. bc i did bring up this med issue to her originally and she dismissed it. essentially it's that my cancer med (tamoxifen) and depression med (sertraline/zoloft) both use the same kind of liver enzyme. the liver only makes so much of this at any given time, so they're in competition for resources meaning probably neither is working as well as it should be. sooo i get to start tapering down off sertraline, and in like a month when that's done i can start on lexapro which is another SSRI but doesn't use the same liver enzymes. or something like that. what am i, nerd science guy over here?
catch yall with the next page, surely.
l8r