the cat has fallen. the situation is at a loss.

hello faithful ?? subscriber? reader?

it's been a while since i last made a post. chemo has been going. i won't say going well because nothing about chemo feels well, it's like a week long hangover plus you're getting over a stomach flu or something. it really genuinely sucks and getting anything done is REALLY hard.

but i am managing to take care of myself at least. i'm almost to the end of my first group of chemo drugs that i have to take (adriamycin and cytoxan) and soon i'll start the other drug (taxol) that i have to take for 12 weeks.

i'm a little scared about changing drugs (who wouldn't be!! spend 2 seconds looking up what these things do and you'd be too D:) but there's nothing really to be done about it but to face it bravely. the big worry i have, though, is that this drug is so damaging to nerves that it can cause permanent nerve damage in extremeties. like uhm. my hands. and the way to prevent this is super low tech.... i sit with my hands in ice the entire time i'm being infused with the drug. to slow down the circulatory system, and prevent the drug from getting into the hands in any large amounts.

and i am NOT A FAN of being cold lmao

so... that'll be me once a week right up til summer. but after that, i'll be done with horrible poison infusions and my hair will get to grow back and i'll be able to eat sushi and pet strange dogs again.

in the meantime, i know it makes me sound like a broken record, but having cancer Is Really Expensive. if you can donate to help me out, i would be so thankful for it. i can't reliably take on side work right now because i can't reliably complete it, and it's not like my utility companies have a cancer patient discount plan. lmao i fucking wish right? so money... is tight. and i spend... a lot just on doctors now.

well. that's all i got. since i'm almost two weeks from my previous chemo dose right now i almost feel 100% back to normal right now, so i better karpe diem and get some stuff done before fatigue knocks me down. thank you for sticking with me. i genuinely appreciate it.

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so no comic today, sorry, just an update on what's happening with cancer treatment for those following along.

here's my obligatory "i am starting chemotherapy" update.

the long of it is: because they found spots of cancer cells on the lymph nodes removed for examination during surgery, i did not dodge the bullet on needing chemo. i'm gonna be on a 5-6 month chemo treatment (the more intensive chemo, just nuke it all from orbit basically) called Dense Dose AC/T.

you can look it up if you want, but basically it amounts to "shit is about to suck, bigtime." chemo attacks fast growing cells, which include cancer cells. but it also includes: digestive system cells, the cells inside your mouth, bone marrow cells (making fewer blood cells, which means the immune system is junk) & keretin cells (hence why hairs/nails can fall out) in the process.

some things i'm not allowed to do on chemo include: eat sushi, pet strange animals, pet my OWN animals (without disinfecting my hands after), eat fruit/veg (including BANANAS) without washing the skin first, eat any kind of buffet style or 'fill a bag' style food (like by the lb candy), garden (if i MUST i must use gloves) use alcohol based mouthwash... you get the idea.

the very first medications prescribed to me were two (count em: two) hardcore anti-nausea medications. insurance will also cover medical marijuana for this. this is the real deal, folks.

so...

if i turn you down for an invitation to visit/hang out, please do not take offense.
if i do not respond to things in a timely manner, please do not take offense.
if you want to help at this juncture, money (transit, "safe" food, prescriptions, potentially hiring a cleaner) is most appreciated if you can spare it. if not, moral support is just as appreciated.

i am about to become very, very sick to achieve the goal of killing the cancer cells potentially still floating around inside of me. i will miss my spring and my summer. but i will live.

chemotherapy begins on the 7th of march (this month) for me. it will be every other thursday for a while (7th, 21st, 4th etc) in boston at harvard vanguard. it will involve me sitting in the hospital for 4-6 hours each time. i am... not hype about it.

once i'm done with chemotherapy i will still need radiation therapy and after that endochrine therapy... but i will live. it will be a long, long year. but i'll still be here at the end of it. i got this.

thanks you for stickin with me.

no comic update yet, just a brief health update!

i'm healing from surgery. they took out the cancer and all cells that could potentially turn cancerous nearby, and by all accounts the operation went really really well. my obscene pain tolerance is doing me credit by enabling me to go through all this without the need for any kind of prescription painkillers. they gave me like, -one- oxy right after the op and i didn't need anything except extra strength tylonal after that haha.

so i am back home with the cats, recovering. i won't know for a few days yet still if i'll be in need of chemotherapy or not. i will def need radiation therapy. in a couple of days the surgical drains will be taken out though and i'll be able to sleep on my side again and whew... that's gonna be a relief.

speaking of sleep? seems like that's what my body wants to do to heal. after a few hours (by which i mean...two or three max) of being awake i get extremely tired and just gotta sleep. so if i fail to respond to somethin...well... i'm probably just sleeping.

i'll be working to try and get out the next comic page before anthro new england - which i am still attending, btw. cmon down to the dealer's den to give me a fistbump if you feel so inclined! i can't do hugs or high 5s just yet, but hey, i'll be glad to see ya. <3

Inhuman update

whats up friendssss. enjoy: this new comic page.

this coming monday is more doctor stuff. they're saying it's Staging which i guess means i might lose my Stage 2 diagnosis (t2n0) depending on what they find. it'll be a CAT scan and a bone scan. i've already had an MRI and a biopsy so... can't be MUCH left to do before they put me under the knife and get rid of the actual cancer itself. right? right...?

obviously it's a pretty stressful time. i've been drawing strength from all my dumb anime heros to get through it with my head held high but there's def still some very dark moments i feel, usually when i'm trying to sleep at night. but hey that's what the antidepressants are for amirite?

i'm absolutely determined though to do two things.
One: not stop making comics. if i made them with a benign tumor inside the bones of my drawing hand in 2010, i can make it with malignant tumors in my chest 2019!!
two: i will make it to anthro new england.

i am going.
i do not care.
if i have to break out of a hospital i will do it.

so if you are also going to ANE this year, i WILL be there to see you. but: please no hugs, because if i'm recovering from surgery that is probably just not a great idea lmao.

whew golly what a year. what a world. but hey i'm finally learning the boston train lines i guess lmao

see you next time....be ferocious and friendly yall

Inhuman update

well now im all caught up on my hero academia and in hell with the rest of the fandom waiting for new issues and episodes. good times.

i cant much think of what to say here, cuz this entire week has mostly been me just trying to make it through a day at a time til my doctor visit next week. but i can say this!!

if you have a few bucks - any at all really- to spare? please, please help my friends out. these are very dear people to me and i really really want to be able to see them secure. they're currently struggling to afford housing. so yeah this is one of those "help these folks out so they arent homeless on the holidays" kind of fundraisers.

their goal is extremely modest too, theyre only like 800$ away. if all of us pitch in a little bit, we can close that gap!!

so please back my friends' fundraiser to keep their housing situation secure

ok thx... see ya later friends

inhuman updated

hows it shakin. im not great. okay good deal.

im reading my hero academia finally and im enjoying it. i only just got thru the Stain saga, so there's plenty still to go.

ok not im gonna go lie down i guess .. night

inhuman updated!

hey hey all. so a few things real quick.

1- you may notice some minor layout changes to the site. there's some errors with the archive pages displaying the hi-res links the right size, i know about it, please don't worry! it's just not fixed yet.

2- we're halfway through inktober!!!

...okay that's all i got, i gotta get something to eat. later!

Inhuman update

heyyyy yall, this fall is the fall of fursuits. im spending my free time finishing up alph's sphynx suit (which, btw, has made it EXTREMELY clear to me why there arent more sphynx suiters... ohhh my god) and being a hyena myself. last weekend i yeen'd around the king richard's ren faire with theon greyjoy (ok so ... it was kep dressed as theon but so what) and tonight i guess im gonna go drive gokarts around in hadley (outside amherst ma).

honestly my fav thing? showing little kids how the inside is set up so the mouth moves. GO FORTH AND MAKE PUPPETS AND MASKS, KIDS, YOU KNOW THE SECRET NOW. tho i've noticed that little girls are generally the only ones brave enough to ask questions. INTERESTING...

anyway in other news... i inherited kep's old ipad and pencil and i'm going to -try- to learn to use procreate. i only just got comfortable drawing with my decade old wired tablet on my laptop in firealpaca, so upgrading to the uhhh modern era of digital tools is going to be a serious learning curb.

not a whole lot else to say! patreon patrons are still getting access to the redrawn arc 4 pages as i finish them in anticipation of publishing the next book, as well as any random writing notes or whatever that i may have to share.

beyond that... things are pretty mild round here. so with that in mind... see you with the next page?

Inhuman updated

so after like, weeks of a heat wave, we finally have a nice cool day. and here i am wearing the heaviest hoodie i own because i just WANT TO HAVE HOODIE WEATHER, GOSH.

ive been really tired out lately, and i'm not entirely sure why. it sort of sucks. i miss the momentum of earlier days, but i guess given the way the state of things is in the country these days a level of baseline exhaustion is probably normal. the state primaries were earlier this week and i'm glad i got my vote in. if you're in america -PLEASE- remember to REGISTER TO VOTE and be sure to VOTE in the midterm elections this november! you can even start the process of registering online.

https://vote.gov/

i'm having some major 90s nostaliga lately. last night i started rereading gaston leroux's classic (phantom of the opera) and out fell a torn reportcard that had been used for a bookmark the last time i read it. the reportcard didn't have a name or a location, but a list of classes and two teacher names visible (along with grades) which lead me to the realization that it wasn't my report card (i'd never taken band!) but was that of my bff in public highschool. meaning the book had last been read in 1999. dammmmn now i feel old.

the next page of the comic will be page 666. i must fight the urge to draw everyone hollow eyed and dripping blood from their sockets. which sucks cuz wow that sounds fun.

see you next time friends

Inhuman update!

oh god its hot right now. hello friends, im going to keep this brief i hope. im really tired.

if youre a fan of my work please please consider supporting it on patreon! in exchange you get to see all the redraws of arc 4 art for the upcoming book, like this redraw of pg 82! you don't even have to pledge a lot. even 1$ a month gets you access to all that stuff. including the psd files of the redraws, if you like that stuff (or just want to make horrible edits to my work and cackle, im down with that too)



of course if you pledge more, you'll get more. like drawings i will draw for you. think about it!

in real world stuff, ive started reading banana fish. which sounds cutesy (i thought anyway) and wow, isnt. its absolutely more like. post vietnam era mafia street gang conspiracy murder mystery stuff, and im completely hooked. i wish someone had told me about that a long time ago, cuz i always wrote it off cuz it sounded like such nonsense fluff! my bad, ha.

oh yeah... and i have two new lil rat girls. their names are sugar and skunk, and you can see their pics on my instagram. i love them.

til next update, friends...