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Oct. 2nd, 2025 11:13 amyieks its the best month already!!! unfortunately i slept thru the first day. i guess an event, friends, surgery and cooking just were too much for my lousy energy levels. i got up and fed the girls and then was like 'what if i lie back down for like an hour, grab a nap' - next thing i know ren is under the blanket purring beside me and i am OUT for five hours.
sub-optimal for getting work done, but i think i just accept this is my reality sometimes now. it's taken so long to accept though, boomers are very staunchly not going to hear it when someone 'young' like me (in my 40s) talks about bodily problems like chronic fatigue or pain. theyll just steamroll the convo goingn YEAH BUT ME and its evident they arent listening at all, just trying to tell you they have it worse.
i think once history has had a good look at this generation of americans it's gonna dub us the sickest generation tbqh.
ANYWAY.......
i dont have major plans for october, tbh. i have a few paintings i'd like to finish, two comic pages for someone i'd like to finish, and i really would like to get back to getting inhuman arcs set to print.
but i am also still managing a house and running interferance between 3 cats who invent drama with eachother day after day. audrey tried to rouse me to play cat wand with her yesterday - i woke just enough to hear her sad, sad mews from the hallway as luna growled at her from under the bed keeping her at bay. sheesh you two.
we're in the middle of two cold days out of nowhere. the kind that years ago wouldve been normal this time of year. now it seems like an oddity to want to wear socks around the house first thing in october. ah well
i'm really trying to break my smartphone reliance. a friend got herself a flip phone and honestly i am jealous. most of them used to be able to use a basic browser! i feel like so, SO much time is wasted refreshing the tiny screen for some pellet of positive feedback. and as much as i love (some) podcasts, the good ones update so slowly it hardly seems worth it to carry the phone on me everywhere i go. especially in this uniquely fashy era.
surgical recovery is going well - tomorrow i get to SCRUB at my scalp which i have been dying to do. i admit ive been ruffling it gently to remove scabs.. which i was told not to do for ten days. seven is almost ten though right? same with wearing a hood up yesterday and today... im supposed to wait until tomorrow. but whats two days difference? it's COLD, especially with a shaved head???
my yellowjacket lawn colony seems to still be doing well in spite of the chill. they remain pretty meh about me walking withiin inches of their burrow entrance twice a day for the mail. i genuinely think this is key to cohabitation - acclimation to normal, nonthreatening interactions. if as humans we dont flip out and stomp and scream and swat and flail etc the nest wont freak out and go into defense mode. just everybody be cool, be cool everybuggy. im the same human as yesterday and the day before. no need to even pay mind to me.
still very sleepy. not sure where ren went after her breakfast, i was busy moving the plants back outside to the sun. audrey mauled the catnip plant while squealing and running around last night but i'm pretty sure it'll survive. i've brought it back from the dead a few times now after all. herb roots are very resiliant, see.
having some mixed feelings abt my hairline now, especially since someone at the fair asked me if i was done highschool. HIGHSCHOOL. like 25 years ago!!! i sure hope this doesnt turn into 2006 where i got carded trying to see the silent hill movie bc it was rated R. it's still a good movie. fight me on that one lmao
okay.. month opener journal now composed. time to see how mcuh more i can get done without the cursed rectangle before i cave to its siren song. tho keepiing a similarly heavy object in my pocket helps. ive been using a plush of the bug pokemon grubbin.
fuckin love grubbin
later taters
sub-optimal for getting work done, but i think i just accept this is my reality sometimes now. it's taken so long to accept though, boomers are very staunchly not going to hear it when someone 'young' like me (in my 40s) talks about bodily problems like chronic fatigue or pain. theyll just steamroll the convo goingn YEAH BUT ME and its evident they arent listening at all, just trying to tell you they have it worse.
i think once history has had a good look at this generation of americans it's gonna dub us the sickest generation tbqh.
ANYWAY.......
i dont have major plans for october, tbh. i have a few paintings i'd like to finish, two comic pages for someone i'd like to finish, and i really would like to get back to getting inhuman arcs set to print.
but i am also still managing a house and running interferance between 3 cats who invent drama with eachother day after day. audrey tried to rouse me to play cat wand with her yesterday - i woke just enough to hear her sad, sad mews from the hallway as luna growled at her from under the bed keeping her at bay. sheesh you two.
we're in the middle of two cold days out of nowhere. the kind that years ago wouldve been normal this time of year. now it seems like an oddity to want to wear socks around the house first thing in october. ah well
i'm really trying to break my smartphone reliance. a friend got herself a flip phone and honestly i am jealous. most of them used to be able to use a basic browser! i feel like so, SO much time is wasted refreshing the tiny screen for some pellet of positive feedback. and as much as i love (some) podcasts, the good ones update so slowly it hardly seems worth it to carry the phone on me everywhere i go. especially in this uniquely fashy era.
surgical recovery is going well - tomorrow i get to SCRUB at my scalp which i have been dying to do. i admit ive been ruffling it gently to remove scabs.. which i was told not to do for ten days. seven is almost ten though right? same with wearing a hood up yesterday and today... im supposed to wait until tomorrow. but whats two days difference? it's COLD, especially with a shaved head???
my yellowjacket lawn colony seems to still be doing well in spite of the chill. they remain pretty meh about me walking withiin inches of their burrow entrance twice a day for the mail. i genuinely think this is key to cohabitation - acclimation to normal, nonthreatening interactions. if as humans we dont flip out and stomp and scream and swat and flail etc the nest wont freak out and go into defense mode. just everybody be cool, be cool everybuggy. im the same human as yesterday and the day before. no need to even pay mind to me.
still very sleepy. not sure where ren went after her breakfast, i was busy moving the plants back outside to the sun. audrey mauled the catnip plant while squealing and running around last night but i'm pretty sure it'll survive. i've brought it back from the dead a few times now after all. herb roots are very resiliant, see.
having some mixed feelings abt my hairline now, especially since someone at the fair asked me if i was done highschool. HIGHSCHOOL. like 25 years ago!!! i sure hope this doesnt turn into 2006 where i got carded trying to see the silent hill movie bc it was rated R. it's still a good movie. fight me on that one lmao
okay.. month opener journal now composed. time to see how mcuh more i can get done without the cursed rectangle before i cave to its siren song. tho keepiing a similarly heavy object in my pocket helps. ive been using a plush of the bug pokemon grubbin.
fuckin love grubbin
later taters
