i would prefer to stand
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i spent all day sitting to draw on livestream and then sitting to scan the drawings and now im sposed to sit down and write a post? get real i got old man spine. i will stand here i guess; maybe do some squats like final fantasys
i just had a smoothie i made w berries from the back. i mean i made one yesterday too but i didnt think to write abt it. the berries were washed n frozen but mix them w some greek yogurt, a glug of juice, two bananas in the blender its a pretty good smoothie. and since theyre wildberries theyre full of chopped up lil seeds, good 4 u.
but also i dropped my seltzer on the floor so now its a bomb and ate a turnover that wasnt good for me and made my hands sticky. sporticus would be so shocked w me
a livestream day is always kind of a stressful one for me. WILL the internet cooperate (i did have to restart the router), WILL the software be functional WILL the hardware also be functional. this time for the first time in easily ten years, i did a drawing-on-paper stream using a webcam. the resolution isnt greatbut that could even just be due to the limits of the wired hardware, i cant work where the best light is. i prefer drawing on paper for sure tho... when things are being done theres no going back and i vastly prefer that to infinate revisions. like i know some revisionary tricks from the comic for 20 yrs, but overall working in ink and paint feels much more like real life to me. probably because it is a tangible object lol. the cleanup time post-stream seems about the same digital vs paper. i still spend a while saving everything & dispersing it to its commissioners.
ok im tired of standing but i still don't want to sit, i'm kneeling now
audrey took her meds this morning way better than last night. still gotta give her tonights. some mattes came so i can make one of my linocuts look real purdy to show an example of how one might frame it n then list it for sale. i hate the nonstop hustle but also, need money to take care of that dead tree asap
also i gotta call insurance monday bc FEMA says we're in a flood plane but our gov says theres no climate change haha hoho hehe fuck the usa i wish i had more money to send to gaza i cant handle the poor fuckin parents over there ready to die for their children but watching their children die anyway. fuck israel, from the bottom of my eastern european jewish heritage heart.
ehg whatever sits down
i did some smaller linocuts for fun just to have something to stamp mail with honestly, finally got a luna one to work! i made some paws and a leaf but luna was much trickier. i dunno what i'll cut next but honestly, digging deep into something over and over with intent. good for working out the rage in my heart.
its ttrpg nite but it feels like we're in a bit of a rut right now, tho part of that is just my failure to connect w the character i guess. it happens sometimes!! not every character is a keeper.
its hrt night probably - can always tell cuz my nose breaks out. wild to me that going by this metric i nailed testosteronie in the smack dab center of average levels on my blood test. or maybe not so wild i think im a lil more in tune w this meat cage than most believe.
i really want my new glasses to get delivered. i need them so bad and i am tired of waitinggggg its been like a week and a half cmonnnn
gaggsddsgsdf im already late for ttrpg and audrey still needs her meds, i guess bye til tomorrow
i spent all day sitting to draw on livestream and then sitting to scan the drawings and now im sposed to sit down and write a post? get real i got old man spine. i will stand here i guess; maybe do some squats like final fantasys
i just had a smoothie i made w berries from the back. i mean i made one yesterday too but i didnt think to write abt it. the berries were washed n frozen but mix them w some greek yogurt, a glug of juice, two bananas in the blender its a pretty good smoothie. and since theyre wildberries theyre full of chopped up lil seeds, good 4 u.
but also i dropped my seltzer on the floor so now its a bomb and ate a turnover that wasnt good for me and made my hands sticky. sporticus would be so shocked w me
a livestream day is always kind of a stressful one for me. WILL the internet cooperate (i did have to restart the router), WILL the software be functional WILL the hardware also be functional. this time for the first time in easily ten years, i did a drawing-on-paper stream using a webcam. the resolution isnt greatbut that could even just be due to the limits of the wired hardware, i cant work where the best light is. i prefer drawing on paper for sure tho... when things are being done theres no going back and i vastly prefer that to infinate revisions. like i know some revisionary tricks from the comic for 20 yrs, but overall working in ink and paint feels much more like real life to me. probably because it is a tangible object lol. the cleanup time post-stream seems about the same digital vs paper. i still spend a while saving everything & dispersing it to its commissioners.
ok im tired of standing but i still don't want to sit, i'm kneeling now
audrey took her meds this morning way better than last night. still gotta give her tonights. some mattes came so i can make one of my linocuts look real purdy to show an example of how one might frame it n then list it for sale. i hate the nonstop hustle but also, need money to take care of that dead tree asap
also i gotta call insurance monday bc FEMA says we're in a flood plane but our gov says theres no climate change haha hoho hehe fuck the usa i wish i had more money to send to gaza i cant handle the poor fuckin parents over there ready to die for their children but watching their children die anyway. fuck israel, from the bottom of my eastern european jewish heritage heart.
ehg whatever sits down
i did some smaller linocuts for fun just to have something to stamp mail with honestly, finally got a luna one to work! i made some paws and a leaf but luna was much trickier. i dunno what i'll cut next but honestly, digging deep into something over and over with intent. good for working out the rage in my heart.
its ttrpg nite but it feels like we're in a bit of a rut right now, tho part of that is just my failure to connect w the character i guess. it happens sometimes!! not every character is a keeper.
its hrt night probably - can always tell cuz my nose breaks out. wild to me that going by this metric i nailed testosteronie in the smack dab center of average levels on my blood test. or maybe not so wild i think im a lil more in tune w this meat cage than most believe.
i really want my new glasses to get delivered. i need them so bad and i am tired of waitinggggg its been like a week and a half cmonnnn
gaggsddsgsdf im already late for ttrpg and audrey still needs her meds, i guess bye til tomorrow
