naughty beast
Nov. 21st, 2024 12:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
not_funsomeone help me, ren had her 17th birthday recently and has become an absolute pill now as she's suddenly re-discovered watching tv/screens.
she used to do this a lot as a kitten but i've had a blissful like 15 years free of it. now... she's back at it. brat.
did i mention i got into MICE!?? holy shit i got into MICE!! that's an extremely big deal to boston area comic folks!! i'm not on their website because i only got in as i was waitlisted and somebody else dropped out last minute. but i am SO EXCITED for this. also ren is tired of watching me type and stepping on keys. oh my god. ren stop lmao
i just sent off the second draft to the printer for a digital proof of inhuman book 5, so i'm almost through getting things produced for the crowdfund rewards. i had a good weekend visiting my buddy rickfox to pick up the hekshanian zines from the print shop where they work, and we also hung out and commited minor political vandalism to blow off some steam about how trash this country is. they're always such a good host even if we both have unpredictable energy levels and i whine like once an hour about missing the cats lmfao. rick's almost ready to start the fundraising for their own comic (project starlight!) and i'm really excited to see how far this moonshot of theirs goes. i've had the privilege of looking at some of the thumbnailed concept pages that'll be used by the artists to create the actual comic pages and the comedic beats are all on point. i think folks will enjoy it.
i also met rick's new roomie, gavin, and he's pretty great. anyone who busts out their fursuit to surprise a new friend is kinda chill lmao. i wound up building him a box fan air filter cube cuz his allergies since moving to maine have been rly bad. hopefully it actually helped!!
i've been reading Chuck Tingle's "Bury your Gays" which so far feels like his most meta and also most personal horror work so far, there's a lot in it about industry pressure and also the anxiety of being recognized just on the street when you don't even wanna have such an interaction. this makes it a little heavier than his other two horror books but there's also a sense of urgency and concern i have for the main char Micah because of that i didn't get from the others. it's still quite supernatural and love vs the existential dread of the emptiness between the stars but i feel like this one above all others for me is very close to reality. the scene where the character woke up and tried to buy something in 2025 only to find their card expired in 2016 but everything seems like 2016... lil too real am i right??
fuck yall i cant believe we crashed america's game so hard we had to reload a save from 2016. oh well not like we really made that much progress in msq right
before i let you go, please consider throwing a few bucks towards my friend RaileRat's fundraiser. it had a plumbing catastrophe in its apartment and is trying to raise to pay off the inflated water bill that resulted. the goal is only 250! they're 20% of the way there!! Raile could use your support even if it's only 5 or 10 bux.
i'm a little rattled by the fact that everywhere away from home that i've visited lately has been less uhhh hostile towards queers than here. i guess that's what i get for unknowingly settling in lovecraft country. i've started back into regular strength training workouts and ordered a knife to carry with me places, even though the hostility and harassment seems to very largely come from old white men. i got stonewalled at the SSID office trying to update my gender marker illegally as well, tho, so it's not just old white men. fun times. fun fun times.
i guess in relation to that, i dropped out of therapy. the reason i needed it was largely i needed someone to listen to the way things were going and the way my family was treating me and to be able to say "you're not crazy, that is in fact fucked up" and well... once i got that validation, i'm good. yknow? and now sadly reality has reaffirmed i am also correct about the political tone of america. all those attempts to mollify me with reassurances was failing and irritating me because... i was sadly right, we were only paused at the stoplight on the highway of fascism with biden. we hadn't turned or reversed course or even shut off the engine, we were just waiting for a green to roar on ahead. trans bathroom bounties are real, concentration camps for immigrants will soon be real too. i wish i hadn't been right, it would've been better if i'd been paranoid. but you know how the old 90s tshirts used to say - it's not paranoia if they're actually out to get you.
anyway, knowing i have a good sense of (terrible) reality also gives me a clarity of purpose and a focus towards creating and working. while i don't have the emotional bandwith to be anyone's personal cheerleader, i absolutely can help american queers who are looking for help or have questions about getting passports issued. or if you're feeling confused about the meaning of life or something, i can rattle off some gibberish about how our lives and fights and stories arent for ourselves but for the children who will grow up feeling like us in a future where we may not be around. let our actions and our creations lay a foundation that permits them to feel like they are not alone. because feeling alone is one of the most nefarious tools in the arsenal of propaganda to make you submit to despair. see?
i love the art for the new mewtwo card that's premiered in pocket TCG... better make it real before i come to nintendo hq and start a fight.
see you later friends
she used to do this a lot as a kitten but i've had a blissful like 15 years free of it. now... she's back at it. brat.
did i mention i got into MICE!?? holy shit i got into MICE!! that's an extremely big deal to boston area comic folks!! i'm not on their website because i only got in as i was waitlisted and somebody else dropped out last minute. but i am SO EXCITED for this. also ren is tired of watching me type and stepping on keys. oh my god. ren stop lmao
i just sent off the second draft to the printer for a digital proof of inhuman book 5, so i'm almost through getting things produced for the crowdfund rewards. i had a good weekend visiting my buddy rickfox to pick up the hekshanian zines from the print shop where they work, and we also hung out and commited minor political vandalism to blow off some steam about how trash this country is. they're always such a good host even if we both have unpredictable energy levels and i whine like once an hour about missing the cats lmfao. rick's almost ready to start the fundraising for their own comic (project starlight!) and i'm really excited to see how far this moonshot of theirs goes. i've had the privilege of looking at some of the thumbnailed concept pages that'll be used by the artists to create the actual comic pages and the comedic beats are all on point. i think folks will enjoy it.
i also met rick's new roomie, gavin, and he's pretty great. anyone who busts out their fursuit to surprise a new friend is kinda chill lmao. i wound up building him a box fan air filter cube cuz his allergies since moving to maine have been rly bad. hopefully it actually helped!!
i've been reading Chuck Tingle's "Bury your Gays" which so far feels like his most meta and also most personal horror work so far, there's a lot in it about industry pressure and also the anxiety of being recognized just on the street when you don't even wanna have such an interaction. this makes it a little heavier than his other two horror books but there's also a sense of urgency and concern i have for the main char Micah because of that i didn't get from the others. it's still quite supernatural and love vs the existential dread of the emptiness between the stars but i feel like this one above all others for me is very close to reality. the scene where the character woke up and tried to buy something in 2025 only to find their card expired in 2016 but everything seems like 2016... lil too real am i right??
fuck yall i cant believe we crashed america's game so hard we had to reload a save from 2016. oh well not like we really made that much progress in msq right
before i let you go, please consider throwing a few bucks towards my friend RaileRat's fundraiser. it had a plumbing catastrophe in its apartment and is trying to raise to pay off the inflated water bill that resulted. the goal is only 250! they're 20% of the way there!! Raile could use your support even if it's only 5 or 10 bux.
i'm a little rattled by the fact that everywhere away from home that i've visited lately has been less uhhh hostile towards queers than here. i guess that's what i get for unknowingly settling in lovecraft country. i've started back into regular strength training workouts and ordered a knife to carry with me places, even though the hostility and harassment seems to very largely come from old white men. i got stonewalled at the SSID office trying to update my gender marker illegally as well, tho, so it's not just old white men. fun times. fun fun times.
i guess in relation to that, i dropped out of therapy. the reason i needed it was largely i needed someone to listen to the way things were going and the way my family was treating me and to be able to say "you're not crazy, that is in fact fucked up" and well... once i got that validation, i'm good. yknow? and now sadly reality has reaffirmed i am also correct about the political tone of america. all those attempts to mollify me with reassurances was failing and irritating me because... i was sadly right, we were only paused at the stoplight on the highway of fascism with biden. we hadn't turned or reversed course or even shut off the engine, we were just waiting for a green to roar on ahead. trans bathroom bounties are real, concentration camps for immigrants will soon be real too. i wish i hadn't been right, it would've been better if i'd been paranoid. but you know how the old 90s tshirts used to say - it's not paranoia if they're actually out to get you.
anyway, knowing i have a good sense of (terrible) reality also gives me a clarity of purpose and a focus towards creating and working. while i don't have the emotional bandwith to be anyone's personal cheerleader, i absolutely can help american queers who are looking for help or have questions about getting passports issued. or if you're feeling confused about the meaning of life or something, i can rattle off some gibberish about how our lives and fights and stories arent for ourselves but for the children who will grow up feeling like us in a future where we may not be around. let our actions and our creations lay a foundation that permits them to feel like they are not alone. because feeling alone is one of the most nefarious tools in the arsenal of propaganda to make you submit to despair. see?
i love the art for the new mewtwo card that's premiered in pocket TCG... better make it real before i come to nintendo hq and start a fight.
see you later friends
