did u miss me...?
Aug. 27th, 2023 04:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
not_fundid you miss me at the bronx con?
im sorry abt that u-u
literally the day i was to board my amtrak connection, at 4am, my little sister (who was hosting and who, ngl, i mostly was going to new york to see) got super sick and could not keep anything down. while we're not sure if it was covid, it was nasty enough it doesnt matter... so i called it off. i am sorry if anyone looked for me there, i notified the organizers as soon as i found out.
molly was the one family member who had my back coming out trans, and honestly since coming out our relationship which had always been pretty fraught before got much better. i think because it finally clicked into place that i wasnt resentful of her feminity it was just painful that -i- was being constantly subjected to forced feminity. kind of a lightbulb moment for her, and so since american trans life is kind of -really- bad right now i just wanted to see her and remind myself that some family members do have my back. it is a very lonely feeling time out here in the boonies where nazi neighbors sometimes shout at me. lonely when family members respond to hearing friends & peers of mine are targets of genocide -along- with me and just are like hmm :) dont let it get to u :) so... yeah,
i mostly wanted to see my sister and she got very ill and i called off the trip.
im trying to pick up the pieces of these shattered plans now and get back on track, though depression is still pretty bad. i hope whatever next plan i go for it doesnt turn out like this.
be well, see you soon with a page
im sorry abt that u-u
literally the day i was to board my amtrak connection, at 4am, my little sister (who was hosting and who, ngl, i mostly was going to new york to see) got super sick and could not keep anything down. while we're not sure if it was covid, it was nasty enough it doesnt matter... so i called it off. i am sorry if anyone looked for me there, i notified the organizers as soon as i found out.
molly was the one family member who had my back coming out trans, and honestly since coming out our relationship which had always been pretty fraught before got much better. i think because it finally clicked into place that i wasnt resentful of her feminity it was just painful that -i- was being constantly subjected to forced feminity. kind of a lightbulb moment for her, and so since american trans life is kind of -really- bad right now i just wanted to see her and remind myself that some family members do have my back. it is a very lonely feeling time out here in the boonies where nazi neighbors sometimes shout at me. lonely when family members respond to hearing friends & peers of mine are targets of genocide -along- with me and just are like hmm :) dont let it get to u :) so... yeah,
i mostly wanted to see my sister and she got very ill and i called off the trip.
im trying to pick up the pieces of these shattered plans now and get back on track, though depression is still pretty bad. i hope whatever next plan i go for it doesnt turn out like this.
be well, see you soon with a page
