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not_funhalloween not over until i say it over!! i wish.
trick or treaters came and went - tho it is a hell of a thing to budget for, its very worth it to me to watch their faces light up (or their parents faces!) when they discover there's full sized candy to be had. some kids would get real ambitious and ask if they could take from each bucket (toys, fruit candy, chocolate) and i was just like... yeah sure go for it. our street is no longer 'officially' part of trick or treat so the ones we get deserve a reward for their effort. lotta teens this year, some little ones. i did get one mom saying "this house goes all out!" as they approached which is fun to me... especially cuz most of the decorations are just ones that live in storage and many were bought at the dollar store. i just get creative with them is all! i'd discuss what my big decoration was this year, but considering my stalkers have flown all the way from the west coast to my back yard, and that they parked outside my house years ago, i'd rather not share yet. my hope is the one who parked outside the house won't remember which house it was (it's pretty likely) and i'd really like to /not/ look out my front window and see a familiar party parked facing the wrong way on the opposite end of the street staring at my house. again. they're also the reason i'm not going to furpoc - please don't give raizap/sdamned/chu/slightly damned your money thanks
election anxiety is in the extreme. me & alph already voted by mail (confirmed it online) but the prevelence of trump signs with full on white supremacist slogans on them like "america first" or "take america back" in this ostensibly blue state of massachusetts worries me deeply. i'm not excited for the coming week, at all.
i think ren's picked up on the anxiety and has been the MOST fussy baby the last few days. primarily she just wails and wails that like... blankets in the cat bed are not folded to her specification. or that breakfast is not being served an hour early. or that dinner is not being served an hour early. or that i am sitting outside giving out candy. she's just an elderly baby, and she has WANTS. she's going to be a nightmare tomorrow when the clocks roll back and suddenly breakfast and dinner are an hour LATE to her.
okay so back to halloween - we finished watching senritsu kaiki file/cho/world kowasugi and damn i WANT MORE. alph said they were just hitting the perfect stride with the characters and I AGREE lmao watching ichikawa duck kudo and punch him in the armpit was amazing. ichikawa's acting is so, so good. it's understated but it's so funny if you're watching for it. anyway it's a great 'horror documentary' style fiction series and i highly reccomend it. "world" has a pretty heavy sexual assault trigger but if you can handle disembodied voices speaking a horrible memory and implied threat, nothing happens on camera besides a bad guy being hit with an aluminum bat. and there are, of course, evil interdimensional worms. becuase it wouldn't be koji shiraishi without evil interdimensional worms. i really hope more kowasugi comes out soon. it's great stuff.
i also found another slow burn haunting/horror podcast (presented as 'this is rly happening and i have to record it u guys) that i've been getting way into called "I'm Probably Going to Die" which is just a great example of how you don't need a huge budget or elaborate production to make something creepy. a great deal of its horror comes from giving a (very real sounding) anxiety disorder from trauma a paranormal twist, but delivered by a very friendly sounding irish fellow's voice it goes down smooth as silk. there's only 7 episodes so it's easy to catch up. honorable mention too to the podcast "this house will devour you" which is a 1920s supernatural series told via letters between a couple after wwi. though the sound mixing can be a bit janky in season one (sometimes horses completely drown out the narration) it's got everything you'd want from haunted mansions of europe. i've only just started season 2, but s1 was a great ride.
after giving out candy i joined in a furcadia event at the dry lake dream where we all shared pumpkins we carved (or drew) and prizes and digital goodies got passed out. i won a door prize of one of the newer feral wolf avatars! i dont know, i really enjoy the like group of 20 people doing a digital party event thing. it feels welcoming and nostalgic and fun.
it felt good to carve a pumpkin in one go this year! nothing elaborate, just a cat face. but in the time leading up to cancer and for a few years after, it was too physically painful or draining to do. having it go really rather swiftly this year made it feel like my body is finally getting back to where it once was. sure my right side still gets tweaks of nerve damage and the petechiae from radiation sometimes itch still, but it's not like being stabbed in the shoulderblade anymore.
AND the FIVE YEAR MARK of cancer recover has OFFICIALLY PASSED!!!! that means i have only five more of taking tamoxifen to go!!!! i sure hope america doesn't descend into full on nazism and throw me in a concentration camp for being a sickly queer before that but haha. ha. hahahahaa.
imagine being so privileged you think you should abstain from voting or vote symbolicly for a third party while throwing people under the bus and placing them in clear, active, and very explicitly outlined danger just to feel self righteous. this year is not the year, numbbutts. like i said before - consider it a choice on the ground we have to fight on for the next four years. do you want ground favorable to our fight? or do you want it to be so hostile that those even talking about a fight get thrown in the concentration camps described in project 2025 and advocated for by trump? is /feeling/ like you used your vote to protest our stupid country more important to you than the lives of trans folk, immigrants, disabled folk, african americans, native americans, other queers etc etc etc? if so, stop even calling yourself an ally. you're not an ally. you're a virtue signaler. your npr totebag may make you feel like the smartest person at the neonazi bbq but you're still at a neonazi bbq.
ok now im just lowkey yelling at my own mom lol probably time to wrap this up...
i'm going to get back to scanning old comics into hi rez now that the backerkit finished occupying my inhuman brain space. only arcs 6, 7, 8 and 9 to go...
see ya round
trick or treaters came and went - tho it is a hell of a thing to budget for, its very worth it to me to watch their faces light up (or their parents faces!) when they discover there's full sized candy to be had. some kids would get real ambitious and ask if they could take from each bucket (toys, fruit candy, chocolate) and i was just like... yeah sure go for it. our street is no longer 'officially' part of trick or treat so the ones we get deserve a reward for their effort. lotta teens this year, some little ones. i did get one mom saying "this house goes all out!" as they approached which is fun to me... especially cuz most of the decorations are just ones that live in storage and many were bought at the dollar store. i just get creative with them is all! i'd discuss what my big decoration was this year, but considering my stalkers have flown all the way from the west coast to my back yard, and that they parked outside my house years ago, i'd rather not share yet. my hope is the one who parked outside the house won't remember which house it was (it's pretty likely) and i'd really like to /not/ look out my front window and see a familiar party parked facing the wrong way on the opposite end of the street staring at my house. again. they're also the reason i'm not going to furpoc - please don't give raizap/sdamned/chu/slightly damned your money thanks
election anxiety is in the extreme. me & alph already voted by mail (confirmed it online) but the prevelence of trump signs with full on white supremacist slogans on them like "america first" or "take america back" in this ostensibly blue state of massachusetts worries me deeply. i'm not excited for the coming week, at all.
i think ren's picked up on the anxiety and has been the MOST fussy baby the last few days. primarily she just wails and wails that like... blankets in the cat bed are not folded to her specification. or that breakfast is not being served an hour early. or that dinner is not being served an hour early. or that i am sitting outside giving out candy. she's just an elderly baby, and she has WANTS. she's going to be a nightmare tomorrow when the clocks roll back and suddenly breakfast and dinner are an hour LATE to her.
okay so back to halloween - we finished watching senritsu kaiki file/cho/world kowasugi and damn i WANT MORE. alph said they were just hitting the perfect stride with the characters and I AGREE lmao watching ichikawa duck kudo and punch him in the armpit was amazing. ichikawa's acting is so, so good. it's understated but it's so funny if you're watching for it. anyway it's a great 'horror documentary' style fiction series and i highly reccomend it. "world" has a pretty heavy sexual assault trigger but if you can handle disembodied voices speaking a horrible memory and implied threat, nothing happens on camera besides a bad guy being hit with an aluminum bat. and there are, of course, evil interdimensional worms. becuase it wouldn't be koji shiraishi without evil interdimensional worms. i really hope more kowasugi comes out soon. it's great stuff.
i also found another slow burn haunting/horror podcast (presented as 'this is rly happening and i have to record it u guys) that i've been getting way into called "I'm Probably Going to Die" which is just a great example of how you don't need a huge budget or elaborate production to make something creepy. a great deal of its horror comes from giving a (very real sounding) anxiety disorder from trauma a paranormal twist, but delivered by a very friendly sounding irish fellow's voice it goes down smooth as silk. there's only 7 episodes so it's easy to catch up. honorable mention too to the podcast "this house will devour you" which is a 1920s supernatural series told via letters between a couple after wwi. though the sound mixing can be a bit janky in season one (sometimes horses completely drown out the narration) it's got everything you'd want from haunted mansions of europe. i've only just started season 2, but s1 was a great ride.
after giving out candy i joined in a furcadia event at the dry lake dream where we all shared pumpkins we carved (or drew) and prizes and digital goodies got passed out. i won a door prize of one of the newer feral wolf avatars! i dont know, i really enjoy the like group of 20 people doing a digital party event thing. it feels welcoming and nostalgic and fun.
it felt good to carve a pumpkin in one go this year! nothing elaborate, just a cat face. but in the time leading up to cancer and for a few years after, it was too physically painful or draining to do. having it go really rather swiftly this year made it feel like my body is finally getting back to where it once was. sure my right side still gets tweaks of nerve damage and the petechiae from radiation sometimes itch still, but it's not like being stabbed in the shoulderblade anymore.
AND the FIVE YEAR MARK of cancer recover has OFFICIALLY PASSED!!!! that means i have only five more of taking tamoxifen to go!!!! i sure hope america doesn't descend into full on nazism and throw me in a concentration camp for being a sickly queer before that but haha. ha. hahahahaa.
imagine being so privileged you think you should abstain from voting or vote symbolicly for a third party while throwing people under the bus and placing them in clear, active, and very explicitly outlined danger just to feel self righteous. this year is not the year, numbbutts. like i said before - consider it a choice on the ground we have to fight on for the next four years. do you want ground favorable to our fight? or do you want it to be so hostile that those even talking about a fight get thrown in the concentration camps described in project 2025 and advocated for by trump? is /feeling/ like you used your vote to protest our stupid country more important to you than the lives of trans folk, immigrants, disabled folk, african americans, native americans, other queers etc etc etc? if so, stop even calling yourself an ally. you're not an ally. you're a virtue signaler. your npr totebag may make you feel like the smartest person at the neonazi bbq but you're still at a neonazi bbq.
ok now im just lowkey yelling at my own mom lol probably time to wrap this up...
i'm going to get back to scanning old comics into hi rez now that the backerkit finished occupying my inhuman brain space. only arcs 6, 7, 8 and 9 to go...
see ya round
