not_fun | the final post of 2024

this year's inhuman-verse sketchbook pdf is out for download btw

hey, hi
so oh my god this month has been a little crazy. not just MICE, but after MICE getting everyone's cards mailed (i hope you all liked them when you got em) and trying desperately to get book 5 out in print before the month ended. in that last one, i failed. the factory shut for the holidays so there's nothin i can do. but these are all learning experiences. a project in late autumn may snafu thru winter. fortunately all this has meant really is that my studio is crammed full of a bunch of packages that are all unsealed awaiting one goddamn comic book before they can be released into the world like a flock of doves or some shit

it'll be nice when it's printed tho.

in retrospect i still did a lot this year. i started at ANE with a really rough drafted final print copy for the last arc of inhuman... i changed printers. i got chapter 4 out in print. i made a queer birds zine thingie. i did daily draw for pride. i visited furcationland in maine! i vended at my first street faire w worcester pride! i did another daily draw, made another book (bug pokemon lol) and THEN wound up vending at MICE!!! a total bucket list dream convention!! i got a fucking 06 yamaha vino moped that makes me feel a sense of self assurance i've forgot what it was like to have. i started therapy, i quit therapy, i learned after 3 trauma specialists in therapy that my family is in fact the fucked up social circle living in gilt denial and comfort, i'm not broken for noticing. i learned from those same therapists i apparently really have helmed this ghost ship masterfully. i avoided my family at all costs. i realized how much easier it is to stay on track when they aren't involving themselves and randomly making me feel awful and doubt my perceptions. i started a sticker club.

i hit the halfway point in being FUCKING DONE with taking my cancer med for ten years. still spike every empty bottle of tamoxifen into the bedroom carpet out of spite. five years. halfway.

i got my work displayed in the local crystal-headshop! nothing sold from there but, display is cool. i got back into painting (vs digital) and the vent
relief from it is amazing. some even sold.

i tried to arrange to like, DO things. we went to a (rainy) ren faire, a titanic artifact exhibit, friendsgiving card games....

this last holiday my friend rick even came down and hung out for a few days just chilling out with the cats. for me, for setting goals and achieving goals and trying to hang out with people who are cool more, i feel like i did real well this year. it was a lot of stress too, a lot of anxiety over a lot of different things. but i lived almost out of spite for the society that wishes i hadn't. and i intend to keep that momentum up.

so i'm hopeful about 2025 on my personal side. i want to make a sketchbook thats even gayer and hornier than this years. maybe even a full on comic out of horny spite. i want to make some autobio comics. i want to visit more places, i want to make more things, i want to meet more people. i can do all this in an n95 with a knife in my pocket for any shithead bigot who wants to go, but the only ones interested in starting shit seem to all be like 75 anyway. i'd like to grow tomatoes again.

sometimes even in losing things we rediscover pieces of ourselves and i feel like that was a great deal of this year for me.

i look forward to what more i can uncover in 2025.

*shameless need to survive capitalist hell still voice* and if you'd like to join me, consider monthly support on patreon or ko-fi. for $6.50 a month on kofi you can join the sticker club and get a little surprise sticker every month too. like a gift that keeps giving as long as you keep subscribed. or you can show some one-time support and buy something from the shop, and it will be very good.

that's all i have for everyone today. i hope to see some of you at Anthro New England next month! i'm only vending on Friday so i won't be around much after ...the hotel prices are just outrageous x.x

see you in the new year.