sorry for the long silence, i've been busy
Aug. 5th, 2025 09:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
not_funhaaaa i'm playing the final fantasy XIV patch that came out today but missed like HALF of the main quest so far. but a bunny got turned to dust and it wasn't me. BETTER THO my bunny can wear hats again!!! and pointy wizardy hats cover his ears!!! this was always my secret lore of why he wore wizardy looking hats as a hyur (human), he was hiding his ears until the idea of masculine bunny people was normalized. hmm. hmmm what could this be allegory for
anyway sick i can pop on a hat when i feel like it now and its not a tiny doll hat perched on his forehead
today was absolutely low energy, sucked that way. audrey took her meds a little better today, didnt spend the morning waiting for some terrible thing to occur and kind of just went about her business nervously. slowblinked at me a few times when i saw her lying by the door in the sun, and i gave her some treats and slowblinked back. talked to the vet and got pill form buspirone via chewy that we can try again - but she wasnt interested in treat meds before. not even rotisserie chicken! so we'll see.
luna was fussy today too, very bossy and huffy. she spat out her thyroid pill the first time and walked off huffing at me DARING to tell her to come back and try again. she eventually took her pill out on the enclosed front porch (aka catio) but she can be such a bratty creature.
ren is... old. she has her moments of being active and spry, but most of what she wants at this point in her life is to take a nap knowing where i am. preferably in the room with me nearby. easy access to a fresh cup of water just for her is a bonus, and so is putting something on a screen for her to watch. she likes spinning shapes, like the car shop in grand turismo 4 (but only red cars! alph has discovered) or meatwad in aquateens (bonus: things being thrown is fun for her and the voices dramatic, she loves aquateens) and aetherytes in final fantasy xiv (those are big blue crystals that act as teleportation points, usually in towns)
the best part of today by far was that the usb cable for my mp3 player came!!! so i loaded all like 200gb of my music collection onto the sony walkman nw a55 and it was great. just drag & drop onto the micro sd card. i can search by genre and artist etc of course now it's all on here, but even better, I CAN SEARCH BY FOLDER. i can just GO TO A FOLDER for an audiodrama like dr kildare if i want, i dont have to figure out what the hardware thinks the artist is or whatever. holy shit lol
i had a little bit of a snag with the bluetooth headphones - not connecting, but because volume control via bluetooth on this device has to be done by the speaker end, it lead to the abrupt and somewhat frustrating discovery that my controls were installed upside down by someone. cowin e7 from 2015, you fool. also to raise or lower volume i have to hold the down/up button for like 3 seconds and let go. if i just press it once, it moves back and forth between items in the playlist on the mp3 player - or back and forth in seconds on iphone. or, if i hold the volume up button to lower the volume for too long, it disconnects its pairing. lol.
the upside is: the mp3 player also supports wired headphones. and uses the wire on them as an antennea and even lets you get radio on it. thats fucking amazing haha like i know thats walkmans THING kinda but, that they kept and digitized it, thats pretty great
i did some basic maintanence on my kofi today. cleaned sold out paintings from the shop and tidied up the listings a bit. added a livestream ticket to the commissions in case people would like to reserve themselves slots ahead of time. i still need to list the linocut i did, but that is another day. also cuz comradery is in beta and some folks are running into sign up errors, i made a kofi print club overflow tier, so nobody misses out.
also designed biz cards... finally put my name on one for once!!!!! its been a long running thing that i actually had to think about last year, like, why do i keep not doing it? i think it comes down to being a disenfranchised minority who's been told over and over that people dont care about me and dont wanna hear from me and just wanna Consume my Product or whatever, leads me to subconciously be like who wants to know what to call me. this is dysfunctional thinking from being around shitty people, but as with a lot of dysfunctional thinking developed from being around shitty people, knowing that's what it is doesn't make it THAT much easier to stop doing. being aware of it is the first part of fighting it, but like, it's also picking a battle with yourself that every time you do it you'll be thinking "how fucked up of you, how egotistical. putting your NAME on the thing that people use to contact you." but as with writing it down, being aware of it kind of makes you also consider how absurd that thinking is. like it still feels bad but ... you get to fight back against it. you know?
worked on my next piece for the indiegame project... i wanted to do more, but my energy just absolutely dropped out around 2pm. didnt return til i had night coffee.
a mewtwo tcg card came in the mail... not a particularly rare one just like, an older design with a lil badge on it making it a variation. so nothing currently of any real collector value to anyone but me. i really want to get to tuning the site up... ive got so many new fun unofficial plush and soooo many cool cards to add. but: after the game project. or so i tell myself.
right now i am really just enjoying being able to play final fantasy without squinting through outdated glasses the ENTIRE time. aaaa hahahahaaaaa
sheesh how is it almost 10pm already. and i didnt even unlock the first combat tasks in msq.
ruthlessly falling asleep to ad-free podcasts tonight
anyway sick i can pop on a hat when i feel like it now and its not a tiny doll hat perched on his forehead
today was absolutely low energy, sucked that way. audrey took her meds a little better today, didnt spend the morning waiting for some terrible thing to occur and kind of just went about her business nervously. slowblinked at me a few times when i saw her lying by the door in the sun, and i gave her some treats and slowblinked back. talked to the vet and got pill form buspirone via chewy that we can try again - but she wasnt interested in treat meds before. not even rotisserie chicken! so we'll see.
luna was fussy today too, very bossy and huffy. she spat out her thyroid pill the first time and walked off huffing at me DARING to tell her to come back and try again. she eventually took her pill out on the enclosed front porch (aka catio) but she can be such a bratty creature.
ren is... old. she has her moments of being active and spry, but most of what she wants at this point in her life is to take a nap knowing where i am. preferably in the room with me nearby. easy access to a fresh cup of water just for her is a bonus, and so is putting something on a screen for her to watch. she likes spinning shapes, like the car shop in grand turismo 4 (but only red cars! alph has discovered) or meatwad in aquateens (bonus: things being thrown is fun for her and the voices dramatic, she loves aquateens) and aetherytes in final fantasy xiv (those are big blue crystals that act as teleportation points, usually in towns)
the best part of today by far was that the usb cable for my mp3 player came!!! so i loaded all like 200gb of my music collection onto the sony walkman nw a55 and it was great. just drag & drop onto the micro sd card. i can search by genre and artist etc of course now it's all on here, but even better, I CAN SEARCH BY FOLDER. i can just GO TO A FOLDER for an audiodrama like dr kildare if i want, i dont have to figure out what the hardware thinks the artist is or whatever. holy shit lol
i had a little bit of a snag with the bluetooth headphones - not connecting, but because volume control via bluetooth on this device has to be done by the speaker end, it lead to the abrupt and somewhat frustrating discovery that my controls were installed upside down by someone. cowin e7 from 2015, you fool. also to raise or lower volume i have to hold the down/up button for like 3 seconds and let go. if i just press it once, it moves back and forth between items in the playlist on the mp3 player - or back and forth in seconds on iphone. or, if i hold the volume up button to lower the volume for too long, it disconnects its pairing. lol.
the upside is: the mp3 player also supports wired headphones. and uses the wire on them as an antennea and even lets you get radio on it. thats fucking amazing haha like i know thats walkmans THING kinda but, that they kept and digitized it, thats pretty great
i did some basic maintanence on my kofi today. cleaned sold out paintings from the shop and tidied up the listings a bit. added a livestream ticket to the commissions in case people would like to reserve themselves slots ahead of time. i still need to list the linocut i did, but that is another day. also cuz comradery is in beta and some folks are running into sign up errors, i made a kofi print club overflow tier, so nobody misses out.
also designed biz cards... finally put my name on one for once!!!!! its been a long running thing that i actually had to think about last year, like, why do i keep not doing it? i think it comes down to being a disenfranchised minority who's been told over and over that people dont care about me and dont wanna hear from me and just wanna Consume my Product or whatever, leads me to subconciously be like who wants to know what to call me. this is dysfunctional thinking from being around shitty people, but as with a lot of dysfunctional thinking developed from being around shitty people, knowing that's what it is doesn't make it THAT much easier to stop doing. being aware of it is the first part of fighting it, but like, it's also picking a battle with yourself that every time you do it you'll be thinking "how fucked up of you, how egotistical. putting your NAME on the thing that people use to contact you." but as with writing it down, being aware of it kind of makes you also consider how absurd that thinking is. like it still feels bad but ... you get to fight back against it. you know?
worked on my next piece for the indiegame project... i wanted to do more, but my energy just absolutely dropped out around 2pm. didnt return til i had night coffee.
a mewtwo tcg card came in the mail... not a particularly rare one just like, an older design with a lil badge on it making it a variation. so nothing currently of any real collector value to anyone but me. i really want to get to tuning the site up... ive got so many new fun unofficial plush and soooo many cool cards to add. but: after the game project. or so i tell myself.
right now i am really just enjoying being able to play final fantasy without squinting through outdated glasses the ENTIRE time. aaaa hahahahaaaaa
sheesh how is it almost 10pm already. and i didnt even unlock the first combat tasks in msq.
ruthlessly falling asleep to ad-free podcasts tonight
