scary skeletons
Aug. 9th, 2025 08:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
not_funso last night shortly after i finished writing, around 9pm, my dad went back to the er with oxygen of 88 when admitted. NOT GREAT. hes stable now, but once again got diagnosed with pneumonia as well as something that's not yet identified thats not helping. and, like said, cpos. so when he starts coughing its really like blow out your lungs and wheeze style. and my stepmom was out of town visiting family aaaa
anyway hes stable, being held another night while they figure out wtf it is hes catching pnuemonia from. theyll test the house for molds and whatever... i have heard of SO many ppl recently getting real sick from mold spores in homes. but whatever it is they want to make sure they clear the pnuemonia and keep an eye on his other vitals and be sure hes gonna be ok for a few before letting him loose again. my poor old father, weh weh. i had a hard time sleeping last night.
talked to him early this morning, fell asleep after cat feeding. woke, washed, meds, worked... found audrey had not eaten. called pop walking to get a coffee. ttrpg called off cuz gm's resting from drs working on his own recurring health issue. fed kitties dinner, again audrey barely touches it,,,
ugh and i just remembered laundry. IM ALL OVER THE PLACE OK. and somehow still con...??? planning???? i have like a week and seven billion vintage pokemon plushies im planning to steam clean and then let go for like 5-15 bux. its fine itll be fine im fine i am under a normal amount of pressure
that is why my body was like no its 5pm and im ready to go to sleep again even tho i got up 4 hrs ago and 4 hrs before that and-
the four hours up four hours down is a sub optimal sleep cycle
anyway. wiley as she is, audrey clearly can tell when even her very favourite snack is drugged. so shes getting an inconsistant does of antianxiety medication, but she seems ...happier??? not to have her ears constantly gooped??? so i guess i'm just going to hope shes stealing from ren and luna and nto starving to death and not giving herself brain zaps. but also. shes not peed on anything lately. and does get SOME of that buspirone down. too soon to say really if its having a real effect.
you know i was thinking earlier how i always used to write as colour/favourite etc in spite of being american, and i think i realized i swapped over when i was working with special need american kids because i didnt want to stress them out and derail them if they saw me write it differently. maybe not the best? choice? but a linguistic choice of least confrontation. we must make thousands of these subconciously every time we interact with other people, huh. stressful to think about.
i find chewing cinnamon sticks is the most rewarding kinetic stim stress at-the-computer activity lately. especially if i get a real good stick with lots of resin inside it omnomnom crunch crunch
im spiteful of my sister and shes chiding my father for eating kfc for dinner like whatever the drs said its ok and its not like hes in there for arterial walls clogged with placque or whatever. its his lungs squeezing themselves inside out and filling with water. let the man have his chicken nuggets.
plan is afaik still to go to the rock mineral fossil geode etc show tomorrow in springfield ma, a yearly tradition. i hope my lil mp3 player can pair to the car, thatd be fun when we lose the boston stations.
spent some time putting stickers into my sticker book. now i think id like to spend some time on final fantasy. then wrestle with the spectre of death like you apparently do each night 2025 if your soul is still alive, regardless of age
oh. right. laundry.
life is not daijoubu. but maybe it will be again someday. thats the hope
so onward to tomorrow
anyway hes stable, being held another night while they figure out wtf it is hes catching pnuemonia from. theyll test the house for molds and whatever... i have heard of SO many ppl recently getting real sick from mold spores in homes. but whatever it is they want to make sure they clear the pnuemonia and keep an eye on his other vitals and be sure hes gonna be ok for a few before letting him loose again. my poor old father, weh weh. i had a hard time sleeping last night.
talked to him early this morning, fell asleep after cat feeding. woke, washed, meds, worked... found audrey had not eaten. called pop walking to get a coffee. ttrpg called off cuz gm's resting from drs working on his own recurring health issue. fed kitties dinner, again audrey barely touches it,,,
ugh and i just remembered laundry. IM ALL OVER THE PLACE OK. and somehow still con...??? planning???? i have like a week and seven billion vintage pokemon plushies im planning to steam clean and then let go for like 5-15 bux. its fine itll be fine im fine i am under a normal amount of pressure
that is why my body was like no its 5pm and im ready to go to sleep again even tho i got up 4 hrs ago and 4 hrs before that and-
the four hours up four hours down is a sub optimal sleep cycle
anyway. wiley as she is, audrey clearly can tell when even her very favourite snack is drugged. so shes getting an inconsistant does of antianxiety medication, but she seems ...happier??? not to have her ears constantly gooped??? so i guess i'm just going to hope shes stealing from ren and luna and nto starving to death and not giving herself brain zaps. but also. shes not peed on anything lately. and does get SOME of that buspirone down. too soon to say really if its having a real effect.
you know i was thinking earlier how i always used to write as colour/favourite etc in spite of being american, and i think i realized i swapped over when i was working with special need american kids because i didnt want to stress them out and derail them if they saw me write it differently. maybe not the best? choice? but a linguistic choice of least confrontation. we must make thousands of these subconciously every time we interact with other people, huh. stressful to think about.
i find chewing cinnamon sticks is the most rewarding kinetic stim stress at-the-computer activity lately. especially if i get a real good stick with lots of resin inside it omnomnom crunch crunch
im spiteful of my sister and shes chiding my father for eating kfc for dinner like whatever the drs said its ok and its not like hes in there for arterial walls clogged with placque or whatever. its his lungs squeezing themselves inside out and filling with water. let the man have his chicken nuggets.
plan is afaik still to go to the rock mineral fossil geode etc show tomorrow in springfield ma, a yearly tradition. i hope my lil mp3 player can pair to the car, thatd be fun when we lose the boston stations.
spent some time putting stickers into my sticker book. now i think id like to spend some time on final fantasy. then wrestle with the spectre of death like you apparently do each night 2025 if your soul is still alive, regardless of age
oh. right. laundry.
life is not daijoubu. but maybe it will be again someday. thats the hope
so onward to tomorrow
